"Should I have a baby?"
"Should I go to college?"
"How am I going to pay for college?"
"What do I even want to go to college for?"
"Why am I already 30!?!"
When I am upset it feels like the end of the world, but as I sit here and type it I find it funny. I just laugh at myself! It's so silly to get upset about a lot of these things. The Air Force won't pay for ALL my college till Cody has been in for 6 years. Well that's fine for the someone younger, but that puts me at 36 years old. OUCH! I don't even like thinking about that number! I don't have a problem working to put myself through college, it's just crappy that I could have it paid for if I just waited. Oh well. I am also leaning towards degree's and studies that I feel are way beyond my brain power! I have been looking at studying Biology or Environmental Science. I really want a career where I can help change the world and help the planet. I am still undecided on what I am most interested in.
Cody and I have been together almost 9 years now and I ask myself, "How long are you going to wait?" and "Didn't we have enough time together without a baby?" I know it will change our lives so much, but I think we would be awesome parents. We already talk about when we plan to take our kid to Disney World! I want to be vegan longer and get a doctor who won't criticism my diet and my life choices before getting pregnant. Also we will be moving again early next year. I think once we move, that would be a good time to start trying. Will I feel this way then? Who knows! LOL I just don't want to be moving while pregnant or moving an infant.
Anyways, that's where I'm at right now. We are also planning a Disney World vacation for late September! We were going to go on a road trip out to California, but Cody's heart was set on going to the "Happiest Place on Earth"! I am super excited also. We need a vacation together. All my trips and sight seeing has been without him since he joined the Air Force. I am excited to see what the month of June brings us. We hope to do a lot of biking this month, go see the Rocky Mountains with our new friends and just get outdoors more!