Life is so hard to plan. Especially once you throw the Air Force into it! Cody and I have been in Wyoming a little over 2 months now. It's taking a lot to feel adjusted after leaving our family and friends back in Ohio. This year has been pretty awesome for me. The first months were hard being away from Cody while he was in basic training. I worked the first 3 months of this year to keep busy while he was gone. Then things turned around and got exciting. Now things have come to a stand still. I get here to Wyoming and I am like, "Now what?"
I want to keep driving around the country. I want to go see Arizona again. I want to go on vacation to Disney World. I want to go go go.... Well, that's all over now. I am at a point in my life where I am getting ready to turn 30 and I need to figure out what I want to be when I grow up! I am not ready for a baby yet, even though my body probably is wondering when I'm going to decide to.
I have changed so much this year. I can't even begin to explain it all in a silly blog post. The change started the day Cody left for basic training. Together eight years everyday of every moment, then he was gone. I had to learn to be alone. No one besides other Military wives can really understand what you are going through, so you don't really talk about your feelings with anyone. You just go on. You put a smile on your face as much as you can and then accept that you also will have bad days.
Driving across the country was such an eye opening experience for me. I grew up in a small town and hardly ever traveled. I loved being able to see all the other states in the country. It is so neat to see the scenery change from state to state. Driving by myself made me leave my comfort zone and made me realize I can do anything I put my mind to!
The REAL reason for this post is to apologize for my lack of blogging this week. I really try to post daily now. Some days though it is hard to make time or figure out what I want to talk about! I can't be like the blogger's who have a theme everyday and every week. I am to random of a person! My mind wonders and I find different things I want to talk about weekly. (Just how this post is random) I try to stick to interior design and not talk about my personal life to much. It just doesn't always work out that way. So forgive me for being so random! lol So many blogger's say to have a "good blog" you have to be coincident. Oops. That's not me.
Anyways, another point to this ramble is to let you all know that I am already moving. Cody and I snapped this week and decided to throw the towel in. We hate our apartment. It is adding to our unhappiness. We are going to try to live on base. We have heard good and bad things about living in on base housing, but we figure it's worth a try. We hate where we are right now and the base is a better fit for our needs. I haven't slept well the last few nights worrying about if I was making the right decision or not! Cody and I are always so scared to make decisions ever since we bought our last house and it turned out to be a money pit!
We get the keys to our new place November 21st! Needless to say I have a lot of packing to do! AGAIN! I will still blog of course. I am a pro at packing, so it won't even take me that long. Good thing is I will finally have a garage and yard, which means I can spray paint!!!! I am super excited about that. I am aloud to paint the walls. I may or may not we'll see. I just hope that this is a start to maybe a little bit more happiness for Cody and I.
If you just read all that, you are awesome. Have a great weekend!